1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't stop to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual what I desire Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Everyone told me, it to her was hopeless At I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The thug always talking about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not interested" is what her body language would say around the way, gave up trying to get in it It matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and to everyone that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz that let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except McDonald's and Smoking weed with of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always trying to But when tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, and pure I was sick in the for her, and there wasn't a cure
[Hook - Jean Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, all planned I'm blessed to know you To have loved and have lost, just to hold you all Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and then stop and talk for a minute I have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem flowers Then I took her out to after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the people and We spent more time but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly honest and complete, she always call me "carino," And never Technique, me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I It was because of her, I deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To stop and stealin', from people like you I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the point where I was either her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my was true I live without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of She could only sob hysterically, me tight I to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I left sight I felt like a moth who got himself too to the light Except I didn't burn, I cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, and my career Ended up locked up like an for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the Then I got sent to the hole, my exit was near At in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her Hold her in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the state me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the of the matter, is I still felt cold Even after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my Fuckin' lots of different women, but I felt alone Relatively around the New York underground But I thinking of her and how we used to be down The sound of her voice, and the smell of her hair Though gone physically, it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too much to So I went and visited the building where she used to The world a lot different after you do a bid way of life done changed While primitive minds are stuck in the same game Like her cousin who was on the corner cocaine in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, a mother oughta But her expression changed, when I asked about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was left She had left it there waiting, for such a time I was inclined to ask about it but she it up first I saw a tear up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me the letter was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, over and opened the door And enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what really was But it hurt me, to see what true love does 'Cause even though we never made love, you were all there was It was because I you so much that I had to make you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be openly when people to me This was not the way I thought my was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me HIV Hope didn't for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I I could've given myself to you I cried in the because there was no one else but you that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your love forever me"
What for the rest of the day is still a blur But I wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story ends a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in with people Hold the person that you love if they're next to you The one you love, not the person simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and beyond 'Cause you never really know you got, until it's gone