1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and shit, her love was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's I desire Flyer than Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke The thug niggaz talking about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her body would say Everyone around the way, up trying to get in it It matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone that did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of that they let hit it And no one ever gave them except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, trying to copy But they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
[Hook - Grae] Don't you know that, waits for no man And our fate, all planned I'm blessed just to you To have loved and have lost, just to you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never
2] Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to On her birthday, I gave her a with flowers Then I took her out to dinner her cousin's baby shower We talked about, to the people and such We spent more time but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would always me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 Forever changing the expression of my when I speak It was because of her, I even deaded all of my She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was I couldn't live without her so I her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a full of tears She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I sight I felt a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned after that night
3] I on with my life, college and my career Ended up locked up like an for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the Then I got sent to the hole, when my was near At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but when I woke she an empty cell until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the of the matter, is I still felt cold Even after my mother, me, cryin' at home My real niggaz catch me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still felt Relatively well-known the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and visited the building she used to live The world looks a lot after you do a bid way of life done changed While primitive minds are stuck in the same game Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' Stepped in the and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I asked about her
4] She told me that was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it waiting, for such a long time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She me where the letter was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the And sure enough was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more me carino" is what the letter said
"By the you get to read this, I'll probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what really was But it hurt me, to see what true love does 'Cause though we never made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so much that I had to you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was hard to not be openly when spoke to me This was not the way I my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that me with HIV didn't exist for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I given myself to you I cried in the hospital because there was no one but you that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, keep your love forever with me"
happened for the rest of the day is still a blur But I remember wishing I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fall in love with people Hold the person that you love closely if they're to you The one you love, not the person that simply has sex you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then 'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's